“Girl, I know it’s too early to do this thing but as it says that when it’s right, it’s right. I won’t say that I’ll pull down the moon and stars for you. I won’t say that I’ll die for you because I want to live this life with you. But yes! I’ll do every possible thing which will bring a smile on your face; which will never hurt you; which will strengthen our pure relationship and that too till my last breath”.

It was dark inside the hall filled with fog on the surface and a mild romantic instrumental playing at the background, just like what I asked for to the manager of the restaurant on this valentine day. I was on my knees, proposing to her who was standing in front of me with her folded hands by her chest, in the center of the hall under the dim light on us. Though there was no need for her to say anything or give an affirmation because it was purely visible in her eyes and smile that she too loves me a lot… actually it won’t be wrong if I say that she loves me a lot.

“Yes, I love you too”, She said while holding my shoulder to make me stand on my feet and hugged tightly… tightly enough that I could feel her heartbeats in the soft silence which was thumping faster than mine. It was that, maybe because there was no fault in her love for me unlike mine for her. But I was helpless to do this to her. I was bounded to do this to myself.

More than a minute passed by and she was still under my arms like she’ll never let me go away from herself. And suddenly my phone rang up, to pick up which I tried to make myself free from her endless affection but even after that she didn’t let me go away.

“No, please. Let it be. Few more minutes… I was dying for this moment to come since I met you”, she whispered to my ears while her face resting on my shoulder, in oscillating voice. I could feel that she was crying but I said nothing. I was numb enough to not understand her feelings. My phone rang up again and I knew that this time I have to pick it up otherwise I have to face bad consequences.

“Baby, I have to take this. It’s important”, I forced and pushed her away from my arms to pick that ruthless phone which was more important than her feelings for me at that moment.

I rushed to the corridor leaving her alone in the hall to receive the call.

‘I was abou…..’ I tried to explain the reason of my late response to the call but the other guy countered in between.

‘Listen to me you asshole! Make sure you upload it by next Friday otherwise get ready to face the real me’, he threatened me. This person, who was now connected to my life, was once my well wisher (as what he used to say) but now wanted me to make profits for him. A mistake and the connection started building up with him who was leading me to nowhere but hell. I knew that what I was about to do in few days is absolutely anti social and as disgusting as he was. But I was helpless. I knew that if I won’t give him what he wants then he’ll take my life. And if I’ll do this one thing for just one time then he’ll not only spare me but also give me money. But for that I’ve to spoil someone else.

‘Sir, please! The work is almost done. You’ll get it on Friday but please be merciful to me after that’, he hung up the call as soon I finished my words.

Seven days passed by with lots of games with her feelings and here I was on Friday; Geetanjali Hotel. We were shopping in the nearest street market when it’s started raining and as per the plan, I took her to the hotel. She was all wet and so was I. I insisted her to change in here and wait for the rain to stop for which I have to take a room (which was already been booked under my name from someone else). And she agreed to that. Everything was working under the plan with her unknown from everything.

“All you need to do is switching the power button of the remote on entering the room and don’t forget to stay in focus every time’. The receptionist whispered to me as I collected the keys and the remote.

I did the same as I was asked for while entering the room. I locked the room and quietly pressed the blue button on that tiny remote which was resting in my pocket. It was the time and I was nervous. I quickly managed to check the hidden cameras’ positions and the focuses on which I should be in with her. She was standing ahead of me with her back towards my face and drying her wet hair with a towel. It was the right time for me to do the thing for which I took her to this place. Though I had touched her before, kissed her before but this time I was even nervous to look at her. I slowly put my hands over her wet shoulders which was carrying her wet and heavy clothes and looked towards her face. She turned around and gave me a mild smile which was enough for me to understand that she is ok with me getting physical with her. But there was also something as if her body was not anymore with herself. I slowly moved my hands from her shoulder to her back and made her face in front of mine. Suddenly I noticed that we’re not in focus, so I moved ahead to her by making her moving backward directly to the focus. We’re now under the focus and her face was in front of mine. We’re close enough to feel each other’s warm breath. And I put my lip over her lips. I was kissing her back to back. But she was more than numb, like she doesn’t even care what I was doing to her body. The other moment I opened my eyes, I was over her and naked. My adrenaline started rushing as fast as it could. I was totally inside her… loving her not to stop. But consciously keeping a check on being in the focus, by rolling all over the bed. The whole time her eyes were away from me unlike ever before. She never looked away from me whenever I was used to be with her but this very time, she was not with me but her body. It was a feel of loving a dead body.

Suddenly her eyes went red and ready to burst into tears and it was more than visible to understand that there is something of which she is not feeling happy.

“Baby, what happened? Are you OK? Should I stop?” I stopped there and asked her.

“You know what? I learned this very thing the time I entered the room that you’ve placed a camera behind that wasp and the wardrobe. I learned that the person whom I loved so much is going to betray me” her voice started oscillating with every word. I was surprised and ashamed. I was not even able to make eye contact with her, so I moved towards the corner of the bed and sat on it away from her with my eyes on the floor.

“I learned… that the person whose promises were nothing but just another sales speech to sale my soul and love for money. But I didn’t stop you because I wanted to see how far you can go to kill my soul. I didn’t stop you because there was no shame in you to do this kind of ru...ruthless thing to a woman who loved you so much that she was ready to SLEEP WITH YOU”, She continued and ended with a loud cry.

“But you… you complete your task. Now there is nothing in me you can destroy more. Now I am already dead. You carry on and do whatever you want. Check if we are in focus not or you want any help? TELL ME YOU FUCKER!? You want me to SMILE on it? SAY IT? SAY SOMETHING?” She burst out and started hitting my back while pulling me towards the bed.

I was ashamed enough to leave the place and die. This girl trusted me and loved me so much that she was ready to sleep with me. Me?! Who was selfishly destroying a life to save mine. Me!? Who was… or is doing a mistake to come over another mistake. I was feeling a void in myself… a void which was worst than dying. I put on my clothes, pulled out all the cameras and wiring which were hidden in there, leaving her behind crying on the bed naked and made a last call while moving out of the room.

“Hello Police station? I have something to confess”